Tuesday, 17 July 2018

Mind numbing pain

When something you’ve come to love and enjoy very much is suddenly no longer a part of your life it’s like there’s a huge gap left inside you. If you don’t deal with the loss in a correct way it can cause you to become very sad and depressed for months or even years which affects others around you and makes you miss the rest of your life you have left to live.

The best way to deal with any hurt, heart-ache or loss is to embrace that hurt. Embrace the pain. Let it flow through you without any resistance. Let it hurt as much as it can until it feels like you could just explode and disintegrate into millions of little piece of matter, and then let it hurt some more. Depending on the situation, this intense hurt can last for a few days or a few weeks but it will pass. Just like an incredible storm, after it’s done raging and destroying, the sun will shine again. After the intense hurt has passed, you’ve processed it in the best way possible and you can begin the healing process of moving on with your life without carrying that hurt with you.

Sometimes some things need to fall apart in order for something better to come together.

Saturday, 14 July 2018


Still, nothing means nothing
Without you
You give me a reason
Something to believe in
You give me a meaning
Something I can breathe in
It's a bittersweet feeling
Longing and I'm leaving
Tell my heart to lie
But I know deep inside it's true
That I wish I was there with you
Oh, I wish I was there with you
- Dua Lipa

Monday, 25 June 2018

mountain climbers and cheeseburgers.

During my last few reps today:

1. Cheeseburger or double cheeseburger.
2. No pickles, extra onions.
3. Meal or ala carte.

I had a hard time in the shower after my workout today. That warrants me a cheeseburger right? Right!? ๐Ÿคจ

Thursday, 21 June 2018


Got so damn good at isolating myself from everything that under normal cicumstances, it would've scare me.

Tuesday, 12 June 2018

he won't go

He won't go
He can't do it on his own
If this ain't love, then what is?
He's willing to take the risk
So I won't go, I can't do it on my own,
If this ain't love, then what is?
I'm willing to take the risk

Will he, will he still remember me?
Will he still love me even when he's free
Or will he go back to the place where
He will choose the poison over me?
When we spoke yesterday
He said to hold my breath, to sit and wait

I'll be home soon, I won't be late